Catching Self-Abandonment

Today, a sense of self-disappointment washed over me.
I agreed to a new venture.

My intention was to wake up at 4:00 am to prepare for the 5:15 kickboxing session.
I remained in bed.

I felt a sense of failure at first.
It’s as though I have failed myself.

However, when I paused, I saw something else.
Rest was what my body craved.
I paid attention, differently though than foreseen.

Later, I went for a walk.
Being in nature felt more honest. More aligned.

I would have pushed myself had I gone.
Ignoring what was already clear.

Abandonment did not mark today’s situation.
It was a change in my thought process and in my body.

Training and obedience...
In reality, it was a disconnection.

Silently, I ignored what my body was telling me.
A moment where people chose power instead of paying attention.

Prompt: What did I know but ignored it instead? Where did I leave myself today?