Not Explaining Myself

Going a little deeper than the week before: trusting my first knowing.

I asked myself: Where did I feel the need to explain myself and what was I hoping it would give me?

I noticed it happens when it feels like I’m not being understood.

So I keep talking.
Adding more.
Going off into tangents.

Hoping that something I say will finally land.

What I really wanted was simple; understanding.

But then I asked myself: What would it look like to let my words be enough?

The first answer scared me.
The second one didn’t come.
Then the third said go back to the first.

It’s okay to feel scared.

It’s okay to say something once and not keep explaining.

I’m learning I don’t have to chase understanding. I don’t have to chase being understood all the time.

I can say what I need to say and let it stand.

Prompt: Where did you feel the need to explain today? What would it look like to say less and stand in it?